Thursday, October 9, 2014



the dull ache of your leaving 
still lingers, 
the darkness surrounds me 
like a cloak
my heart bleeds, still an open wound
after all this time
I wrap the days around me
like a binding sheet
I shut out the feelings
my heart is heavy 
my days long 
I try to chase away the memories
of happier times
they draw bitter tears
and useless regrets
I try to accept the way
of life, not really understanding
why things must be this way

Janice Kuykendall  (October 9, 2014)

Monday, July 7, 2014


A Mother's Lament

To each of my children
I gave you a little piece of my heart
And now I wish I had given all
So that I would not feel this aching pain
of final separation so searing
that it takes my breath away
This pain that all mothers must face
when their children sprout wings
and fly away, excited for the next chapter
in their lives, while we, with open wounds
must bind them and pretend
that everything is fine 
while our hearts are breaking
I know that I must accept
what I cannot change 
the tender, sweet days of mothering
are behind me and I cry
because I wasn't ready

Janice Kuykendall  07/07/14

Thursday, May 29, 2014


sometimes in my loneliness I cry
and wonder softly why
no one loves me or cares
if my heart is full of despair
then I see only darkness
stretching out like an abyss
and I think it would be kind
to my heart and mind
to be like smoke blown by the wind
if this heart I cannot mend
Janice Kuykendall - 2014